Girls are dumb, and confusing, and really kind of mean sometimes.

College is stressful. I would say screw it and just procrastinate more than I already am, but if my GPA goes down much lower I'll lose my scholarship.

My phone is broken. It won't charge, and I have to have it plugged into the wall just to use it. Screw that.

I'm spending more money than I'm bringing in.

I really need a freaking promotion or I will kill myself. God, I hate my job.

Well hey, there are my complaints. Or some of them. Feel free to post your own reasons why your life sucks right now!

oh man. do i have a hum dinger of a girl story.

girl in kalamazoo is engaged with a 9 month old kid. ive known her years. so, i go to visit her. basically, shes no longer happy, but she has to stay with her fiance because of the kid. she basically tells me she wants me, she cares about me, i can have her, but if we do bang, we cant talk anymore cause her fiance will find out. i say im not shady, and i wont do that while shes with someone. she says ok, but another time. then she says how shell never trust guys and how any guy shes with will never be trusted and everything.




i ran the FUCK outta there.

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I will post here, in the spirit of... commiseration. Or something. Self-centeredness, too. These are things I can change, though, and am trying to...

I'm ridiculously behind in three of my classes. That's not very good to say the least, and the end of the semester is creeping up pretty rapidly. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! I've done it to myself, though.

The past few days have been nice because it's Thanksgiving break (which ends tomorrow ), but the past five weeks leading up to this I've averaged 3-4 hours of sleep a night, not including Friday nights which are usually 7-8 hours. I'm never tired at night (sleep so much Friday due to the ability to sleep in), but every day sucks.

I'm tired of being smart and logical and good at writing. That's all I've ever been. I want to be seen as feminine and caring and sensitive and as a whole person capable of being involved in other people's lives and as something more than a walking brain that can do anything as far as a profession goes. I dislike the compliments I get the most often and want ones I'm never given.

I'm tired of pressure to succeed when in reality I turn in most of my homework late and don't care about it at all. My parents think I get all A's, which I'm very capable of and got all through high school, but I'm tired of the system by now and don't care for unnecessary work and learn from classes while getting B's and C's because I just don't care to play that game, even though internally I still pressure myself to do better than I do because for so many years that's where my worth was in my family and without it there is nothing. Basically I refuse to buy into the system anymore while concurrently expecting myself to have a 4.0.

I want to be able to function socially without needing an extremely extroverted friend to leech off of, because what will my social life be like after I graduate and those people aren't there anymore?

Again, I really want to be appreciated for everything I am.

I've been using dopamine and endorphins released via various means to cope since I was nine years old, and I have no idea what it's like to live without anything there. I'm trying, but as stated in another thread every day feels like the first day of school after being homeschooled my entire life all over again.

Well, that was cathartic.

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Miles to go before I sleep

‎"Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."
-Khalil Gibran

I have no job.

I don't care for any girls right now, I just want to have some fun with some random ones.

Ummm I wish I was at NC State instead of a community college. I regret not applying.

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im almost 25, living at home with a job that has little to no room for advancement.

i have applied for "real jobs" but have never gotten so much as a response (good or bad) from any place.

i have no idea where im going in life.

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Check out my website: http://www.artistzero.com

"That wasn't very nice...I do believe you killed my hat."

Driver of the FIRE LINDY RUFF Bandwagon since 2008.

i cant even get an interview right now. seriously. i feel like im 14 again living with mommy and daddy.

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Everywhere I've applied to, most of them haven't called me for an interview, and some have but none of them worked out.

I don't get it, plus I hate interviews but I tell them mostly what they want to hear.

It sucks and these aren't jobs that even really matter except for a college kid or high school kid to do.

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USING A PHONE THAT'S PLUGGED INTO THE WALL?! OOOOOH THE HUMANITY!!!!


Haha...sorry didn't mean to sound like a bitch. That part just sort of made me chuckle.

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"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hockey Night in Buffalo

let's see...

24, living at home laid off from a job that had little to no room for advancement

applied for several real jobs including my dream job (querying shit as a writer) with no luck

no idea where I'm going. The thought of working in a cube farm again terrifies me.

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Proud LGBTQQ Individual

I got my wisdom teeth out 3 months ago, and since then have felt like my sinuses have been swollen, because when they were taking a tooth out, it went up into my sinuses and they had to cut into them, which caused some some issues a few days after the wisdom teeth removal. It's been extremely uncomfortable and annoying, and has made me feel shitty. Went to the doctor over this break, and apparently my sinuses are A-ok, it's just that my doctor fucked up a nerve in my face, which has caused THAT to be swollen and causing discomfort ever since I got my wisdom teeth out.

My ears seem to be broken, as they keep going up and down in their ability to hear things. It's not fluid, or any blockage. My doctor thought it might be nerve problems in my ears, so he gave me steroids that he thought would help, since if it is a nerve problem, I could potentially lose more hearing, permanently. These steroids are also supposed to help with the facial nerve, too. They began helping a little in the first few days I took them, but now everything seems back to how it was, despite the fact that I still need to take them for the next 2 weeks, so I can safely get myself off them. So, basically, it isn't really helping, and all it's doing is making me exhausted, and have really bad insomnia.

So, if the face doesn't heal I need to go to some doctor in Baltimore and see what he can do, which can potentially mean surgery.

I have no idea what's wrong with my ear, and apparently neither do they, which likely means lots more doctors visits, MRIs, and potentially surgery depending on what's really wrong.

Oh, and I have to deal with all of this, while completing the rest of my papers and finals that are happening within the next 3 weeks!

Super! I hate my life!

i'm 21 with no car/license. that in itself makes life suck.

i haven't heard from my boyfriend in over a day. which is just weird for us, and just makes me have a bad feeling in my stomach.

i've been having bad anxiety attacks lately, i even left work early yesterday because of it.


oh, and the sabres still suck.

Exactly! Girls are freaking INSANE! They don't know what they want! But the problem is, they really hurt us while they figure it out.....

I don't mind. I do need SOME perspective. Honestly, the phone thing wouldn't bother me except for the fact that I'm depressed/ticked off 90 percent of the time now.

Heeey, that kinda sounds like me! I was homeschooled my entire life, and got all A's in HS. Now I'm in college, and I have the ability to do much better than I'm doing, but.... I'm just not. I don't know. Part of it is just that I'm really lazy sometimes. I can do well socially, and I'm actually very popular with my friends, but that's because they know me, and therefore I can be myself with them. When I'm alone, and have to interact with people that I don't know, without anyone else that I know, I'm awkward, and I hate it. I feel like people don't respect me simply because I'm short, and I look younger than I am, and so they feel like they don't have to treat me like an equal.

I just spent 3 hours breaking up with someone . Im never dating someone who doesnt even like hockey again.

I played hockey during my split-shift today and blocked a shot with my testicles. Then I had to come back to work because, well, I had to.

Now I get to sit at work with sore balls for the next 4.5 hours.

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If it's a tight squeeze, spit on it! - NyI

He's a middling AHL player who had the good fortune of a drunk arbitrator. - The Squanto re: Tim Kennedy

Breakups suck. Hopefully you don't have any regrets. I have so many regrets, and so many "what if" thoughts. So many things I would have done differently. So many ways it could have worked out if I'd only known certain things.

definitely sucks. im just stuck in one of those can't eat, can't sleep moods right now. its still all vodka and cigarettes.

Aw girl that sucks

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Yea that does suck when you have those thoughts of what if. I did for a bit too, but I'm still young so to me it's whatever now. Honestly, I just want to get to NC State and do well when I get there. If a girl comes along so be it.

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