Like its out of a goddamn movie? Let me explain. (For one why the hell am I posting this on here.. Whatever just hear me out) 2 years and half ago my ex broke up with me. I was heartbroken... I lost touch of reality thinking that we were going to be together forever out of highschool and I just thought everything was set in stone and when things change you get really fucked up. After that day I haven't seen her in person, until yesterday. Yesterday was basically the best day I have had since then. I went to see the men who stare at goats with her and it was like nothing hadn't changed. She still genuinely listened to what I had to say, laughed at my sarcastic jokes and she still had that tone in her voice when she was really trying to nail her point of the conversation. We went with 2 of her friends which was a good idea becuase there was bound to be realitive tension between us... I mean i haven't even laid eyes on her in 2 and half years (oh did i mention that all of my relationships after hers failed and i was still very deeply in love with her.)

Anyway Sam (shit im forgetting everything... thats her name)left to go get her coffee and her friend Anthony like spewed off something that should have taken like 5 minutes to say but it heres the gist of it : She broke up with her ex-boyfriend because she couldn't say she loved him, shes awfully nervous, Are you nervous..? Why'd you wait so long?.. ... I didn't get to answer any of those questions.. she returned so it would just be awkward. Anyway that intrugued me.. Why couldn't she say loved him?... Why is SHE nervous? I waited this long to see her because i was hurt and the mere thought of her presents around me is so delightful that its borderline sickening.

Anyway what seemed like a blink of an eye the movie was done and I was driving her car because she was tired. About 2 miles from my house I thought of kinda sly way to get her to stay longer.. 3 years ago (Oh mind you.. she was bestfriend for 6 years before this) we bought a cat... And she hadn't seen how big he had gotten so I offered for her to come inside and see him.. She accepted; which at the this time got my heart racing and me shaky and I almost t-boned a car because I just blissfully forgot a red light meant stop.

We get to the house.. she sees my place.. Messes around with the cat.. And says her goodbye's and says she will keep in touch, HERE IS THE BIG KICKER THOUGH GUYS! She will be leaving for Los Angeles in a month for year to go to film school. I'm going to lose her again... Her hand just touches door handle, My heart is racing my lips almost say see ya later but the word that comes out is no. Here is my do or die moment.. I say "No, I cannot let you leave like that after all these years I have something to say." What I tell her is how every relationship i have has failed.. how i burned my bed because i couldn't sleep on it with anyone else but her, how everyday i have tried to match my intelligence with someone like her and always fell short..why I cannot ever go to sleep because when she left me it felt like it killed her to go.. and so much that i can't even now think of all what I said. She just starts crying and crying and tells me that she doesn't know what to say and that i should blame her for the insomnia and my problems that have come from her. I didn't blame he for a thing and finally i told her that I am still very deeply in love with her... Do or die moment for her now and partly me. I'm thinking is she crying because she is going to feel so bad when she crushes my heart again because she actually doesn't love me or is she going to have to face facts and realize that she has always loved me but she ran away because she was getting scared because things got to real for her. She says she loves me, and for the first time in 2 and half long long years; they seemed like an eternity I get to kiss the love of my life. On the brink of heart attack I stood up to plate.. took the biggest chance of life and succeeded. I know this way entirely too long and this is a fucking hockey forum for christs sake but I had to have an outlet. Still now I'm going to be waiting for her to come back and I know I can do it... because this time I actually have something to wait for.

Have you had your do or die moment?

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The Board Drunk.

this one time, i wasn't sure if i should get hot sauce or bbq on my chicken finger sub, so i went for it... and got both

best

decision

ever

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FIGHTER OF THE NIGHTMAN

"on the ice now for buffalo, looking for the pass, and gets it, afinogenov, couldnt get the shot away, now HE DOES, HE SCORES!!!! HOLY MACKEREL ROLE THE HIGH LIGHT FILM, MAXIM AFINOGENOV, WHAT A MOVE!!!!.... thats not fair... that was unbelievable"
-R.J. and Lorenz

Well Bauter,

Way back and I mean Way back in the day (I am 39, so.......hey, no laughing at the old dude) in 1988 I decided to join the Army. I dated the same girl for 3 yrs through high school, Carry. I left for the Army, I wrote her letters, I spoke with her on the phone, I came home on leave once in 4 yrs (Hey 90-91 was a busy time for me). Anyways, I sent her an engagement ring in early 90, went off to the middle east later that yr and didn't get back until late 91.
No bullshit mind you, but one of my close friends from high school starting dating her. She sent the ring back with a dear Slesh letter. So, I was 21 with all of this happened and felt lost.
Fast forward 16 yrs (I was 37 then) to 2008. Just last year, in Feb. I was traveling the country as an industrial electrician building power plants. Came home, my father was having surgery (time for me to help mom and dad out). So anyways, I come home, had been married, divorced, have 2 bueatiful children since her. Hadn't seen her in yrs. Then one day my mom asked me to go to tops on meadow dr. in N. Tonawanda (town I grew up in) to shop for her and dad. Thats when it happened, I ran into Carry.
I didn't recognize her at first, but she said I hadn't changed a bit since graduation of high school (chest puffed out and I felt proud I had taken care of myself).
After speaking with her for 20 minutes or so I had discovered she had married, divorced, 3 times.
In 88 she was a sleek vixon of a brunette with sexy Green Eyes. Today, she is not so sleek, The green eyes have some serious trouble staying open because its obvious she's an alcoholic. She looked overly healthy if ya know what I mean.
The point of my story is, I am very happy I didn't end up with that. She spoke like a bitch, popped out 5 kids with 3 different daddies and it was apparent she was not stable mentally.

Every day since that encounter (and I mean everyday) I look skyward and say "thank you lord" over and over again. Then I smile, with a quaint, sly little smirk knowing that the asshole friend from school that dated her while I was away, has to deal with her everyday due to the kids

Sometimes there is justice in this world.

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Lord Stanley's Cup is what its all about.
Mr. Pegula, your destiny awaits you sir.

I had a "do or die" moment, once. I was eating a sausage in puff-pastry, and tried to down the whole thing, because the phone was ringing and I had to answer it...well, it stuck in my throat.

And for about four minutes, i was trying to swallow, while not getting any air...all the while the phone kept ringing and ringing.

Talk about the panic really setting in. Thoughts of death. Blue spots in front of my eyes..."do or fucking die, for real". And the phone kept ringing. It was like a some kind of sick comedy.

Then I finally swallowed hard; scratched the hell out of my esophagus. Coughing and sputtering up pastry flakes.

I was shaking with adrenalin.

That's one helluva ringer

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...It was my East Indian boss: I was managing a men's clothing store, and he wanted to make sure it was open, and what the figures were, from the previous day...

Man, that is truly truly inspirational. I have a story, but it pails in comparison to yours... and lookings back it was really just a bump in the road in my current relationship.

Not to get all sappy, but in my mind anyway, love is the greatest thing you can find in life. If you have someone giving you these feelings go for it. We live once and then fall into endless, black, thoughtless nothing. While we're here on this planet for a short 80-90ish years we should make all the positive connections we can, and nothing is more positive than love. I am truly inspired man. You are so lucky that you did that, and didn't have a thread about missed opportunity and kicking yourself in the ass for letting this slip away. Now, even if it doesn't work out, you can find solace in the fact that you did what you could and didn't back down. Congrats, I truly hope everything works out.

Oh my god you guys you're making me laugh hahahaha

Bauter, that's a great story...takes a lot of courage and it paid off. Just goes to show you that sometimes you have to take that chance.

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Hockey Night in Buffalo

yea for real though bauter, thats some pretty awesome shit

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FIGHTER OF THE NIGHTMAN

"on the ice now for buffalo, looking for the pass, and gets it, afinogenov, couldnt get the shot away, now HE DOES, HE SCORES!!!! HOLY MACKEREL ROLE THE HIGH LIGHT FILM, MAXIM AFINOGENOV, WHAT A MOVE!!!!.... thats not fair... that was unbelievable"
-R.J. and Lorenz

Good for you. That's great!

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Bauter that is an awesome story. I can't think of a good story for me right now, but I really just wanted to say how amazing that story is. I hope everything works out for you!

You know, that does sound really good.

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ATTENTION SABRES: who are you people??!?



http://sabresbecause.tumblr.com

Bauter, it is a remarkable story, I'm glad you are going to be with the girl you've always wanted to be with.

Do or die, well I was at Gamestop for the midnight release of MW2, and there was she short little blonde chick. Well it seemed like she could have been interested, smiling and what-not. So yea, at midnight when we were in line and such, I had to get my game, so I got it. But I never talked to her, so I got no name or anything. Yup, I did nothing, and kinda wish I had, but it's alright. I may see her again, has to live kinda close.

I've told certain girls how I've felt about them. I guess I still have an attachment to this one girl from High School, which mind you I graduated only last year, but she is still there. I really fell for that girl and ended up losing a chance with her. Everyone told me to go for it anyways which I didn't. And we talked everyday until she went to sleep at least. But I ended up having to stop talking to her because of a job I got, and only talked to her for a bit sometimes, and I sorta was like alright, whatever. But before the start of my Senior year, I ended up hearing someone tell me she did end up liking me at one point. And I really hadn't talked to her too much since then so I didn't really have the feelings as much. So I had to ask her, and she had said she liked me for a bit, but basically stopped because we just stopped talking. After her saying that I was like damn, I could have been with you if it wasn't for the damn job I ended up with.

I told her multiple times how I felt about her and such when we talked and such and all she said was not to like her since she would be a terrible girlfriend and she is really shallow and such. I was always like I wouldn't care and crap.

Last summer I talked to her more again, but recently I was like, whatever. I hadn't talked to her too much since, but might again since she'll be free after this weekend for at least a month or two since marching band will be over. But then again, I might happen to like another girl, who I ended up meeting through band and have gotten into recent talking to, since I'm the nice guy and she really got hurt by my really close friend who treats women like crap most of the time. But it would be way awkward, and slightly illegal since she isn't 16 yet, and I'm 18, so yea.

But after the whole Gamestop thing, I'm gonna just go what the hell next time. I regret not finding out her name since she was cute, and most likely had to be over 17 to buy MW2.

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That is wonderful.

I'm learning to let the one I love go.

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Miles to go before I sleep

‎"Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."
-Khalil Gibran

great story bauter..hope all works out well for you two...

i had a do or die situation once with a girl i was in love with in college...

we were eating lunch and she was very quiet, and i could sense something was wrong....then all of a sudden i looked at her and said "you don't love me anymore".....not sure how i knew but i sensed it.....well the tension rose, we talked back and forth.....i was praying it wasn't the end....

it was do or die....

i wasn't sure what was gonna happen....all of a sudden she ran at me, jumped on me, and bit me in the chest....guess it was a die situation....i had a scar for a while....

oh well....life goes on.....

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"It is more about them than it is about the team...Cannot play with them, cannot win with them, cannot coach with them. Can't do it. I want winners. I want people that want to win." - Mike Singletary

Tyler Myers - Future captain of the Buffalo Sabres, and future Norris Trophy Winner

Manning the machine gun on the Tyler Myers Bandwagon - just in case any teams have an idea of prying him away from us (3 GM's shot already)

Connolly/Roy - 2 goals in the last 47 playoff games

After a particularly painful break up, I had an opportunity to talk to the person and pour my heart out to them about how I really felt, risking rejection and another eternity of trying to let go of them. Fortunately, there are second chances for some of us.

Second chances don't always work, but at least you can say you tried til the end and walk away without wondering if you tried hard enough, or let it go too soon.

Take the plunge; what's the worst that can happen? They don't agree with you? Sure, you're wounded again, but at least you tried. It takes courage to expose yourself and leave yourself vulnerable, but sometimes, you reap the rewards of leaving yourself open and following your heart.

Forgiveness is an attribute of a courageous, strong individual who risks loving again.

We as a species are hardwired to seek out a life partner, I believe, and keep trying until we get it right.

/endrant

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"Sarcasm and cynicism: Just two of the many services I provide."
"Never make someone a priority when you are only an option for them."
"You can't polish a turd."

none of the stories i could tell of do or die situations have happy endings. your story reminded me of a song however. i think you might like it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0TfiqKt ... 89AA72DE5F

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"Tis The Season, Fa la la la la LaFontaine" - Rick Jeanneret

Well in 2005 I had a choice of going to a party or going to a Sabres game, I chose the party. The Sabres lost 10-4, thank God I did not have to witness that lol.

If only life was really like that.

However, I did like the song, as I am a hopeless romantic.

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"Sarcasm and cynicism: Just two of the many services I provide."
"Never make someone a priority when you are only an option for them."
"You can't polish a turd."