|
I'm officially studying abroad in Ireland senior year, I decided. I've been flirting with that idea, Ireland specifically, since I was in high school, and traveling isn't exactly something I'll have the opportunity to do after graduation since I'll be a slave to debt. Vacations will consist of visiting friends in various places around the country for a couple days. I love traveling to new places, though. I get bored easily, with where I live and what I do and even the people I know. If it were possible, I would just be a nomad and go all around the world, moving every few months. I'll probably be making as many day trips and having as many "staycations" as possible when I'm older just to give myself the illusion that I'm not really at "home" (which isn't a physical thing, anyway; home is a state of being, and it's being near those you're closest to, which for me isn't really anyone for a myriad of reasons... I'm sure it will be that way till I have children ahaha) since I certainly won't be able to afford more than that for a decade or so. I just can't stand following the same routine day in and day out. The only places I've ever really felt at home in a physical sense were very remote and peaceful, which is odd because that supposedly means boring, but no. I love calm, but I still need to travel, which is not at all calm. I don't understand. I just know that I was already sick of this college after only a year of being here, tired of the buildings and the people (even most of my friends, except for two that are actually moderately complex people) and always doing the same things and always seeing the same scenery and the culture, absolutely everything about it. I'm tired of it. I get this way even about Buffalo, even though I do adore WNY. The only way for me to ever settle down, I think, would be if I had a lot more money than I'll ever make, so I could have the ability to buy a huge chunk of land in Alaska or northern Maine or Montana or California and build a house and have that as a base. Otherwise, there's no way I'd ever actually purchase a home.
Mmmm, yeah, anyway.
_________________ Miles to go before I sleep
"Love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." -Khalil Gibran
|